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Sunday, July 18, 2004

Less Than 24-hours!!

I miss you a lot already! Miss Ong!!

Sent Miss Ong to the airport yesterday.. Haiz.. She was like a sister to me... She really was.. And she thinks the same way too.. I never had a close bondage with a teacher like I had with Miss Ong.. She's like the perfect teacher.. Besides that fact that she was pretty, had the figure and cute.. She's understanding, has a good listening ear, sweet, funny.. And all!!! GOD!! Haiz...

After this.. Who can I turn to? You were the only one that really knew me at all.. You really were.. Guess you and I... Our "relationship" is closer than me and my mum.. I know it should not be that way.. But it's the fact.. My mum doesnt know the stuff I tell you... My mum once scolded me.. She said that I wasnt close with my family... And that I was always with my studies, frens and all.. In other words, didnt spend time with my family a lot.. Actually.. I do.. I tried.. They just didnt see it.. My mum.. She only said she loves her children the same way.. It's been 15 years I tried to study her wad-she-call love for her children.. But I always come up with the same conclusion.. That she has a favourite of her own... Maybe she would deny that.. It's just that she couldnt see...

Heard Avril's song? Happy Ending? Yeah.. SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING!! You think it's easy being the only girl.. You think it's special.. But it's not.. It's so.. SUCKS!! Haiz.. You may also think that being the "princess" of the "royal family" is lucky.. But Im royally flushed!! TOTALLY! I dunno how to say to her.. Like how to come to her senses.. She alwyas thinks she's right... And when I think that Im really right and that she's wrong.. She's still right! She never listens... All she does is NAG NAG NAG! I can get sick and tired of that... Haiz.. She's a total over-protector!! Haiz.. Enough bout her..

Miss you Miss Ong! Love you!!! Aww... Good luck in your future endeavours (is that how you spell it?) Anyway... yeah... MuackzZzZz!!!

Aint she so pretty?!??! (Like me.. HaHa.. She's the Peranakan version.. Im the Mixed-blood version.. HaHa..)

Posted at Sunday, July 18, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Friday, July 09, 2004

Past Chapter.. History..

Hey hey hey!! Long time no see.. HaHa.. Crazy.. When was the last time I updated this thingy??? Seems like ages.. Okie.. Wadever.. Im not gonna tell you each and everyday I spend my day though.. Kinda long winded... You'll be bored by then.. So anyhow...

Lemmi bring you back a week ago.. Wonder wad I did.. Cant remember actually..

So wad happened ah? Okie.. Exactly a week ago, It wa my aunt's befday.. It was the first time in our lifetime that we've celebrated her befday separately.. She's in Vietnam... And we're here.. In Singapore.. How far is that? Oh.. I miss her so much... How I wish I can see through something.. Well.. Cool.. Like a cool gadget or sumthing.. I dunno!! I miss her so much...

Then the next day (030704).. It was our 4th month.. 4th month!! My longest.. Sounds pathetic to you guys.. But really special to me.. HaHa.. My longest!! HaHa... God! I love you more everyday... Well.. You know abt the well.. Serious thing and converting thing.. Honey... Too early to think bout it.. And you're no fool.. You're my man.. My man's never a fool.. Aw... HaHa.. Anyway.. Love you so much.. Wanna be in your arms!! NOW!! Miss you... MUACKZ!!

Well.. After that.. It was back to normal skool day.. Haiz.. You know.. Of all teachers I dun wanna see.. That's MISS LEONG! And of all teachers I wished I could see... That's Miss Ong! Haiz.. And of all teachers Im happy to see.. That's, well surprisingly are, Mrs Aziz and Mr Sim.. HaHa..They are the cool teachers.. HaHa..

Okie.. Then it was, well, probably 2 days ago.. I met.. YOU! Well.. Not you-you.. But "you" refers to well.. This guy I knew.. And sometimes dun wish to know.. Seriously.. So this is to you..:

"I saw you.. WOW!! HaHa.. You know.. I still remember the words you told me... As if it was just yesterday.. Still is vividly in my mind.. Stays so clear.. And has been playing in my mind lately.. Dunno? I'll tell you.. You say this to me:"You turned my worls up-side-down!" Well, you know waD? I've come to realise that it's just a piece of shit that every guy would say.. To flatter girls I suppose.. So girls.. Dun be fooled! I saw you with " the one".. Well.. At least for you.. You seemed happy... Well.. Cool! HaHa.. Well, I have my man too.. I love him so much.. And if one day you would break up with that girl with the same reason you told me you broke up with your previous one, Well.. Im sorrie.. You cant come between us.. You can say our love is strong.. But I cant say there's forever yet.. But that doesnt mean Im gonna fall for your piece of shit.. Haiz.. HaHa.. Shahenaz, well my used-to-be tuition teacher, once told me.. There's a possibility that you'll be using your religious thingy to manipulate me.. But I wun be.. I wun! I may not know te religion more than you do.. But I know wad's rite and wrong.. Im happy.. Very happy with the man Im with.. I love him so much.. Well I dunno wad to say.. Ciao past life! goodbye!! Oh.. My mum might think you're perfect.. But you're just like any other guys..."

Well.. Glad that's off my shoulder!! Well.. I gtg... Buaiz.. Take care.. =)

Posted at Friday, July 09, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Yet Another Boring Day..

Hey ya!!

For the peepz out der... Isn't life so BORING?!? Lemmi spell it out... A TOTAL B.O.R.E.D.O.M!! Yet another boring day each day... It's like history repeating on and on and on and on...

Okie okie.. Guess wadD? I've got a new song!! HaHax... This song.. It's.. It's.. Well.. NICE!! HaHax... Look in between the lines!! Tell y'all sumthing you know... ENJOY!!

"Don't wanna kiss you goodnight"
By LFO

I can’t believe the night is gone
And now it’s time to take you home
Girl, as you come in close to give me one last kiss
Making’ it hard to be leave
Don’t want to leave you like this no

Cause I don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
If a kiss means this night is over
I don’t wanna have to say goodbye
Girl, don’t leave me standing at your door
When this night could lead to so much more
I wanna hold you, I wanna touch you, so when I kiss you
Don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
I used to see you in my dreams
(hoping one day they’d come true)
And there you give yourself to me
But now we’re standing here
And I’m holding you and it’s never felt so right
Don’t wanna leave you here
Can I come inside and kiss you the way you like

I don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
If a kiss means this night is over
I don’t wanna have to say goodbye, no, no, no
Girl don’t leave me standing at your door
When this night could lead to so much more
I wanna hold you, I wanna touch you, so when I kiss you
Don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
I wish this night could be endless
Baby, feeling your skin on my skin
I’ll take my time to make you breathless
Girl, we can do it again and again

I don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
If a kiss means this night is over
I don’t wanna have to say goodbye, no, no, no
Girl don’t leave me standing at your door
When this night could lead to so much more
I wanna hold you, I wanna touch you, so when I kiss you
Don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
I don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
If a kiss means this night is over
I don’t wanna have to say goodbye, no, no, no
Girl, don’t leave me standing at your door
When this night could lead to so much more
I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you, so when I kiss you
Don’t wanna kiss you goodnight
Ooh baby...
Goodnight...

So how? Nice rite?? Woo Hoo!! HaHax.. Okie okie.. I gtg... Oh yeah.. Nothing happen.. Life's so dull for now.. I guess... Take care.. Buaiz!! =)

Posted at Wednesday, June 16, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Saturday, June 12, 2004

Hey Hey Hey!!

Hey hey hey!! Im finally updating.. No "happening"stuffs.. Well, actually.. It's my dad's befday!! Happy Befday to you!!! We had spaghetti for dinner.. Oh.. And macaroni cheese.. I cooked!! Well.. I dunno whether it's nice or not.. But everyone ate.. WooHoo!! HaHax.. Well.. Well.. I've got this song.. Er.. It's just a song that has stuff to do wimme..It's Broken hearted by Brandy..

"Brokenhearted"

While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

I'm young but I'm wise enough to know

That you don't fall in love over night
That's why I thought if I Took my time

That everything in love would be right
But as soon as I closed my eyes
I was sayin' to love goodbye

But I guess I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

No more empty conversation
Next time I will be totally sure
Don't want the pain of falling in and out of love
It's more than my poor heart should endure
So I listen to all the advice
And remember each time I cry

While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

So I listen to all the advice
And remember each time I cry
(Only broken hearted)
brokenhearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

Never thot I was going to be alone

That’s why I asked you to be my best friend

Boy you know you’re always on my mind

Think abt you all the time

While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
Life's not over
I can start again
While I'm lonely

Broken-hearted
It's a hurting thing to get over

By: Brandy

Cool huh?? HaHax.. So.. Well.. There's plenty more songs that has stuff to do with me.. Ermz.. Well.. If I got time.. I'll give y'all a holla.. Er... If you know wad I mean.. Well.. Gotta go now.. Buaiz! =) Take care..

Posted at Saturday, June 12, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Friday, June 04, 2004

Hey...

Haven been updating lately.. Ive been up to something mischievious.. HaHax.. Well.. I haven learn how to do it yet.. But I will.. And I'll inform all of you yeah.. HaHax..

Anyway.. Yesterday.. I went to watch a movie with my darling Gab.. He's a darling.. HaHax.. Anyway.. Had fun.. Great time.. Oh.. Wad movie?? HaHax.. HARRY POTTER!! [..and the Prisoner of Azkaban] Should watch... It's a must-see!!! Really.. Like how Perfect 10 rated.. 4 out of 5!! Wow!! But the ending was like... PooF!..fast.. Really.. Oh.. well.. WATCH IT yeah.. Oh.. Before the movie.. We met with my dear, Justin, Muhaimin and Shameel.. Well.. Missed him a lot.. That's why... HaHax.. They are all going to play soccer.. I heard he was injured... Take care yeah.. Ermz.. Oh.. And it was a lil' sad.. Dun ask why.. Dear.. Im sorrie.. =(

Today.. LI ZHONG! Happy Befday!! Anyway.. Im suppose to go out with all of you.. I know.. Im sorrie yeah.. Well.. Actually.. I didnt wan to.. After I hung up with Cheryl, sayin that I was not able to attend, I called up my all fren.. I thot I needed to spend time with them.. But oh well.. SOrrie yeah.. HaHax.. Oh.. Where did I go? Er.. I went to Orchard and Somerset.. Well.. Actaully they are side my side.. HaHax.. The place I mean. Ermz.. Had a great time with her [my old fren].. Loads of laughing.. Haiz.. Wonderful moments..We've been sisters for 7-8 yrs now.. Wow.. That's long..!!

Well.. Guess that's it.. Buaiz.. =)

Posted at Friday, June 04, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Saturday, May 29, 2004

|[SiMpLe GoOdByE]| *Haiz!!*

Hey.. I know Ive not been updating.. Sorrie yeah.. These days.. Ppl are going.. There's a saying which goes like: "People come and leave..". But Im all ready to stay.. Why not other people?? Haiz..

First.. My aunt left because of some crisis.. STOOPID!

Then.. It was miss ong.. She wanted to leave because she's leaving for Australia in July.. To study.. Wish her all the best.. She's like a sister to me though.. Im going to miss her a lot!! Netball's not gonna be fun anymore.. We talk almost about everything.. EVERYTHING! Haiz... We also talk rubbish.. disgusting stuff.. We did! Believe it or not.. Haiz.. Miss ong.. Why now?? Why? She's such a nice teacher.. Pretty too.. Haiz.. As the captain... I dun even know how Im going to manage the "kids".. Maybe there's a new teacher.. Maybe not.. But I hope not.. No one can replace Miss ong.. NO ONE!

Now.. Fr!cq is leaving too.. Maybe.. Cant tell much.. Sorrie..

EVERYONE'S LEAVING!! WHY?!?!?! Haiz.. I'll dedicate a song I wrote to these people.. Im going to miss you all yeah!!

CHORUS

Why did you enter in my life?
And bring so much joy to it?
Then you left.. With a simple goodbye..

Leaving the wonderful times we spent..

Why did you bring tears to my eyes?
Knowing that it will last for a while?
Why did you do this to me?

Why did you hurt me?

Composed by: Zainab
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Im Gonna Miss You!!!!

[Miss Ong]

From the left:[Li Zhong, Me, Hazel and Jovi]

Posted at Saturday, May 29, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Monday, May 17, 2004

Exams are officially OVER!! Yes ah!!

Thank god!! THANK GOD!! Exams are finally OVER! Haiz... For 2 weeks I've been waiting for this.. And for 2 weeks I've been going SHIT studying so hard.. But ,after all wad ppl think is joy, i still got problems... Okie... For today.. I got a piece of bad news and good news.. Which one you guys wan furz? Okie okie.. Let me clear all the curiousity you have..

[The BAD news!]:

My aunt.. The one that has been out there trying to track every single piece of shit and joy Im going through, is leaving.. Many of y'all think it's suppose to be good news.. But it aint for me.. So much of going out to haunt me down till I regret life, she's actually a nice aunt.. She's understandiing.. sweet.. nice.. She's not the kinda person who'll make you regret life.. It's just an illusion.. You know.. Like a mirage of life.. Haiz.. I love her so much you know... I dun wan her to leave.. I never wan her to leave.. I never want that to happen.. You know.. For her to be happy, I'll have to be happy.. If she's happy in Vietnam with my uncle, then I have to be happy too.. She's leaving this sunday.. This SUNDAY! I dunno.. So much thinking.. And so lil' time.. I swear Im gonna miss her.. SO MUCH! OMG! Im crying!!

[The GOOD news]:

My parents are getting married AGAIN! SOme ppl wun understand this.. You guys need to search for the previous topic which I talked abt my family.. It's a DISASTER! I cant tell y'all when the exact date.. But to those you know.. Please SHUT UP!! Seriosuly.. You guys leak the date.. Im gonna haunt you down.. And make you regret!! This is not a note to you guys.. It's a threat!! Wakaka!! Okie okei.. cut the crap.. They are getting married.. YaHoo!!

Posted at Monday, May 17, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Friday, May 14, 2004

HaHax..

Harlow.. I have more quizes actually.. I didnt get to so called post everything in.. Coz yesterday.. In a middle of having fun with it.. My frens, Fadz and Fr!cq, came by.. They wanted me to accompany them skate at Ida's house.. So I thought.. And I thought.. And I said.. Why not? So I went..

Then.. There rite? We had loads of fun.. I skate also ah.. I wanted to do olllie.. Do and do.. Cannot.. But I never give up ah.. I wanna try being a skater gerl again.. Ermz... After that.. We slack.. Oh.. The most fun thing rite.. I so called make up for Ida ah.. Er.. Nothing much ah.. Just an eye liner and lip liner.. So wad I did was make her up... Er... drew a diamond on one of her eyes.. and colour it.. To make her look like a rock gerl.. Then on the other eye.. I drew cleopatra's eye.. With other decorations.. Fun! And on her forehead, I drew 'Anarchy' symbol.. And on her lips, I drew vampired-like teeth with dripping blood.. HaHax.. She then let her hear down.. And OMG! She looked like a ghost! Seriously.. A pontianak! SO EERIE! HaHax.. Then I did stuff to Shazrina's hair.. Nice sia... The style is from Disney Channel.. So yeah.. HaHax..

Okie okie.. Im bored actually.. SO here are more of the quizes..

Your a petunia. You keep your distance from most people. Your artistic, humourous and you always have your little circle of good friends around you. You never hold anything back, you express yourself very well.

You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only love in your sweet kisses.

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Well, I guess that's it.. Sorrie yeah.. I thot I had more.. So.. Buaiz.. =)

Posted at Friday, May 14, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Thursday, May 13, 2004

Er.. This is my Part II for today.. Quizes anyone??

Hey.. Since Im so free today.. Get to know a lil more bout me... Er.. Im not saying this quizes tell loads abt me.. It may.. It may know.. But just giving you guys a rough idea about me.. Oh.. One more thing.. Sorrie if the picture is outrageously big.. Here goes... =)

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You have friends and most absolutely love you. You can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in anger the next so no one wants to get on your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and magical.

You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will be loyal to them for the rest of his life. Congrats!!

A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and wild fashions. Youre most at ease when you've got all your mates around you and you like to party. Boys are a game and youre always on the ball because you make sure youre always number one.

Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.

Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for attention..

Footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with the people you care about.

You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl who always has a crush and is writing their name on all your books. You are a hopeless romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you take love seriously, but still play any chance you get. You can have a lot if boys who are friends, but waiting for that perfect boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged because there are no sparks but even if the smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about risks.

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure Angels always appear when a child is born, when a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and show their love to everyone in the world.

You are Selene!Beautiful, vivacious, fierce and seductive, Selene vowed she would destroy Lycans after her family was murdered by the werewolves. So ruthless is she that selene is a member of the Death Dealers. This elite Vampire warrior class's mission is to make the Lycans extinct. Ever wish you could be a vampire?

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That's it.. Buaiz.. =)

Posted at Thursday, May 13, 2004 by pweencess_z
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Hollaaa...!!

Hey... Sorrie.. I know I've not been updating.. Im not that hardworking with these kinda stuff.. Oh well..

Today.. I just finished my Elementary Maths Paper 1.. It was easy.. Maybe damn.. But I cant be too confident that I'll pass... So it's kinda 60-40 that I'll pass my Elementary Maths paper.. So yeah..

Ermz.. Wad has been happenning for the past days? Er.. No idea.. But it was a tough week... Im sure by now you know that Im having loads of problems and Im under loads of stress.. Haiz.. This week.. I couldnt study that well.. Eventhough I have been studying.. It's just not too well.. Oh! Im so scared.. Im scared that I wun be able to pass.. Haiz.. FAMILY PROBLEMS SUCKS! It really does.. Haiz!

Okie Okie.. Enough of my "shit" yeah.. Er.. I still got 2 papers to go.. All the luck to me.. It'a Additional Maths Paper 2 and Core Geography.. Haiz.. After Monday, no more worrie bout exams! Thank god!!

Okie... I gtg... Im so tired now.. Take care aite? Buaiz! =)

Posted at Thursday, May 13, 2004 by pweencess_z
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